Friday, May 11, 2007
dunno why i cant add colour or enlarge any fonts.. can anyone tell me why?
okie, just came back from spidey with pei fang and joyann.... found out that i am running a fever of 39.1 degrees......... even kar wing could see im sick, but i tot it was cause im too unwell emotionally.. i have heard of crying causing blindness, but does it cause ur brain to fry?
no wonder each time my brain hurts so much when i start to tear.
i have been crying last nite, today... starting to thiink that there isnt a prob with crying , it helps me to release the anguish in my heart.
i perceieved a terrible news, its so cruel and hard on me that im so scared i will turn into something i will regret in the future. it traumatised me so badly that just thinking or seeing it will freak me out and make me cry....
truth truly hurts.
the prob is i dint even do anything other than being myself. i dint do
ANYTHING wrong!!!!!!!! how can this happen to me?!
What can i do to make u stop this? what can i do to make you leAve!!!!!!!
and now, all i ever wanted was a fren, mainly my best fren to help me remain calm, help me keep a clear mind and not do anything rash.... when u asked for my approval, do i have the right to say no?!!! they say they are so scared of me, but are they so scared that they will cry when they see me? go crazy and wanna run away when they see me? they are not, only faking, they are the ones who have the power to crush my life. all three. they accused me for everything. but here, i present the truth. flipper/faker, f8ker and faggot(kar wing, did i say correctly for the word?)
what is humiliation compared to what have i been going thru............
the both of u said the same thing, i wont be so easily influenced, both persons i love most, but what happened, tell me..
please, and its not easy to leave her,ting. just like him, becos i love them, and she is my best fren.
to that someone on my tag: choose for yourself who i am. choose for urself which is true, only then, can i know who my frens are. thats all i can say.
cheng, btw, i really cant tell u what happened, you wont believe me and it will only jeopardise our frenship.. really.
signing off soon. pray for me, to be able to stand bravely against temptaion to evil. i might just change within one min, i cannot really tell.
will post all that fun stuffi went thru soon, kay? im really tired from all that crying. really tired. all i wanted was for my love to be returned in full.
Labels: ** crying in the rain, frens, i cant make u feel guilty and i wont bother trying to, jigsaw puzzle for the fated, me, somebody Save me
Hosanna in the Highest
2:48 AM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
yo, been really lazy to post for the week, i knock out as soon as i get home, which is typical of me in the beginning of the year, dun believe, u can ask my maid, haha
hmm, lets make a quick review for all my avid fans headed by yannis. :):) lol
last sun, our family was treated by my mum's business partners. the food was lousy, its over $60 per head, but they dun even give u real shark's fins, only indonesia lobster, which is real small and has more shell than meat=.-, yea, waste of money sia...
then on mon, nothing much, has CO which became routinely boring, cos i learnt all the songs le, so only practising over and over again, i find that im liking my junior more and more, her gentle and demure mannerisms tickles me, lol.
my teacher was of cos nice as usual, unlike shu rui's who seem to pick on her and suwern.
tues=> went out i think? is it? cant rmb what i did on tues, sorry, if u noe, remind me....
oh, i rmb, we made the chawanmushi and realised that mdm lur doesnt noe how to prepare mushrooms(nvr wash properly)=.-
then got dragged by greena to have pastamania with her and DJ cries*"my money!!!" and the two of us had to watch her pick out her nail polish and stuff after waiting for a decade =.0
right, and who said that all girls will put on nail polish huruh?! NONSENSE lor, so whats the word u will use to describe me if u dint use 'special' huh?, greena... lol
wed--- went to seoul garden with amanda and KW:) not really worth money la.. but ok, was quite a neat experience.. long time nvr go le ma... made the ice kacang:):)) after you left...
thurs- went to career talk, my holland code is Executive Artictic=.- dun laugh, and if u want to do the survey, i can lend u, cos i did mine on pencil:)
cant belive KW, and Even fid and flo pangseh me :( lol im ok la, its just too bad u missed out on cheap and yummy korean food thats avail near my mum's work plaqce, haha, dun tell u where
fri, had CO, when the dizi people shifted over, heard teng hui sepaking my bad words=.-
smacked him badly after tht, this styupid guy, still say is SC=.- arrgh, mad at him, thou julie tries to convince me hs is nice. ok la, he isnt that bad, just gay, childish, erm, thats about all, started to stypidly calling me jesse, valerie, and eunice....=.- he just dint believe that my name is eunice=.- just bcos my senior has the same name=.- arrgh, stupid gay, still read hong long meng=.-
GAY! brr
to0day was really incredible, that toot's(raychard) mom gave me the keyboard and i had a great time with it... then went to tennis, i was praying real hard, promising to give a certain apology if he held the rain till after my lesson, cos there were thunder and lightning le..
the it really happened, i prayed thruout the thing and he really kept his part of the deal... at 5.15, with 15 mins to go, it drizzl;ed real lightly, then the moment i got on the bus, it poured cats and dogs, the same thing happened when i walked home (cos aljunied oddly dint rain yet :) it also started to pour when i reach my block, its so amazing man... now i have to apologise=.- haizz, how to open my fat mouth....
throuout the course of the week, my dislike for a certain person snowballed, tot he was quite nice, but he turned out to be irresponsible, rude, flirtatious, disrespectful, proud, egoistic, self-centred, and everything u name it, he's got it=.- damn him la, so super rude, cant stand u, wonder how i am to be in the same group for the rest of the year, oh GOD! right, im not talking about jesse even it sounds a hole lot like him kay? :)
and there's no way i like him, puhlease, with his kind of character.... he sucks man!!!
(*i already practically gave his identity away,lol, yes, im flaming him now*)
oh, and i have absolutely no idea how the rumor of me liking Chee Fong now is spreading=.- man, why on earth would i throw myself into this stupid crush thing after jesse?! for goodness sake... haizz, first alvin, now him=.-
kay la, shuo zhe shuo zhe, i become so agitated... lol, this ***** makes my blood so boil to noe that he exists... man. nvr ask also just take ur things, also so rude!!! ill-mannered, erm, impolite, arrogant, and he flirts like, arrgh=.- disgusted is the only word i can have for this filthy person=.- sorry if im being rude now, kinda really agitated at his mention....
on the contrary, i got to noe rachel yong better:) she's nice, craps nicely :):) easy to talk to too... lol, she sometimes got same views as me.. i like her, of cos as a fren only lah, then what u think?! hurhuh? ;) lol the wink is kinda wrong
ok, enough for the review:) heres the replies for your tags:)
~yannis~ erm, throwing rotten eggs? did i say that? when? lol
~shu rui~aiyo whole day only noe how to say diao, im diaoded,lol, see? i noe u sooo well
~BK~ hi there, finally online.... at my blog some more, good boy, lol
~venus~ lol, i tot u saying hi to me, cos i nvr read ur tag properly...but no diff right, im equally cute as it :) haha, i hope this made u guys puke... lol
~amanda~ of cos its Bo kai, then u think its the dunno-who bing khiang or something ah... =.-
~jia hui~ so smart, its him no doubt:)
~yannis~ bad?! what did i do (*screams) lol
inject some life into me!!!!
Labels: interesting, me
Hosanna in the Highest
5:09 AM
Thursday, February 22, 2007
today's birthday is so so, not too bad.. if u can consider not crying good:), i suppose i can say so, at least its peacceful enough, most of the times.
met a p;erson who doesnt want to admit her mistakes, and is gonna get flamed by my other frens who care about me, i just wanted u to admit ur mistakes and wrongs, then i will protect u from the coming harms, thats all! whatmore, u were pranking me horridly, using jesse.
my senior made me think she gonna give me a huge surpirse, only to tell me a lame excuse for not allowing me to go up my class=.- argh, eunice gave me another diary!:)
amanda, JY and AH making me have heart attack, got to wait till next week:( lol, suspense...
my fan club dint noe my bdae today, so sad, haha and thanks jia hui for the card:)
went out with PD and gaiana after that, crashed the arcade again of cos, my score is super high can?!! alvin, u want to challenge me to wat? be it daytona or time crisis, u can give up.
ok, maybe can win daytona by ninja, but my time crisis skills are good, i can say!
went home, with a feast prep by my maid as usual, i wasz hoping my sis can give me a proper gift, but she still gave me this erm, shirt, its ok la, but the design is like something that she will like lor, not me! then she making me wear to church... i dun want! sorry la, but i dun like that kind of shirt wat, then my mom gave me this huge box of accesories, which i like some:) always teach me to be practical, but still give me that... $90 leh... waste money, also give me earrings.... right.... my maid gave me a sports tee:)
oh N my mom bought super yummy berry cheesecake from bakerzinn:):) not bad, i rate it 8/10, the one in paris tt i ate is 9/10, looking for perfect de:)
actually quite sad la, todday. like i noe my mom and sis got spend effort getting me those, but i honestly dun like, and i think my honesty pissed them...
then this *******, came smsing me... when i was smiling and cutting my cake, happy about god loving me for 14 years and for years to come. please, i beg you, im pleading with you, im trying so hard to avoid u, dun look for me, what goes on btween me and my frens is none of ur prob, ur accusations nearly pushed me to tears, leave me alone!!! havent u hurt me enough!!! go away, i beg you. my birthday wish, for all the three celebrations is nvr to see u again, NEVER.
i will type out the letter in 2 years time. for all to laugh, by that time, i dun believe i havent grown.Labels: ** crying in the rain, i cant make u feel guilty and i wont bother trying to, me
Hosanna in the Highest
4:32 AM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
hi all, today was soo fun, went out with jun yao and wen rui, played big 2 in pizza hut and library, in pizza hut, the loser will have to eat a spoon of paprika/dried chilli, it sucks man, taste like hell, it was okie in the pasta but alone, is horrible!!!, nearly vommitted, cos i washed it down with loads of water, lol, its like warm in ur stomach, and the chewing part of the whole thing is gross, cos that disguating taste will be spread in ur mouth lor!
okie, then in the library, lose three times and it will really be early tribulation for u, haha, im not allowed to say cos its part of the forfeit, was sorry to disturb certain pple when i failed and laughed too loudly, hahas, and u pple are not allowed to say anything too...
thats all for today, got lots of tots but not convenient to say,lol, anyways,bb
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Hosanna in the Highest
3:47 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
yo! long time didnt post le, must update
been working up a job schedule with my mum -- like ironing half a basket of laundry will earn me $10 and washing like 10-15 dishes will get me $3, its quite lucrative!!
yup, today was kinda lousy larz, had to sit beside someone, and no one noes the tension the two of us had...
lugged DJ's gift around till my life-saving maid helped me, hope it would cheer him up from his exam results and flu...
also went to PP with G and PD, the both of them are so hua chi lorz... had a pretty relaxing time and received my first chirstmas gift,lol
it ltr then poured and was okie for a while when i prayed, b4 i got nearer to home that did it rain heavily again, it gave this freakin damn car to demonstrate to me the waterfall-by-the-curb! arrgh!! splashed, and totally wilted
my left eye has been twitching so for quite some time le, the last time it happened, i fell so hard on my head, and a huge accusation befalled on me, and well, a few more things happened lor
dunno if the prob with this acquaintance of mine is the reason as to my eye-twitching, like there is this sense of obligation to be this person's fren again lor, but im not that ready to be hurt again if that person refuses me or fool me again, so must pray for the both of us...
Labels: me
Hosanna in the Highest
5:11 AM
