Friday, May 11, 2007
dunno why i cant add colour or enlarge any fonts.. can anyone tell me why?
okie, just came back from spidey with pei fang and joyann.... found out that i am running a fever of 39.1 degrees......... even kar wing could see im sick, but i tot it was cause im too unwell emotionally.. i have heard of crying causing blindness, but does it cause ur brain to fry?
no wonder each time my brain hurts so much when i start to tear.
i have been crying last nite, today... starting to thiink that there isnt a prob with crying , it helps me to release the anguish in my heart.
i perceieved a terrible news, its so cruel and hard on me that im so scared i will turn into something i will regret in the future. it traumatised me so badly that just thinking or seeing it will freak me out and make me cry....
truth truly hurts.
the prob is i dint even do anything other than being myself. i dint do
ANYTHING wrong!!!!!!!! how can this happen to me?!
What can i do to make u stop this? what can i do to make you leAve!!!!!!!
and now, all i ever wanted was a fren, mainly my best fren to help me remain calm, help me keep a clear mind and not do anything rash.... when u asked for my approval, do i have the right to say no?!!! they say they are so scared of me, but are they so scared that they will cry when they see me? go crazy and wanna run away when they see me? they are not, only faking, they are the ones who have the power to crush my life. all three. they accused me for everything. but here, i present the truth. flipper/faker, f8ker and faggot(kar wing, did i say correctly for the word?)
what is humiliation compared to what have i been going thru............
the both of u said the same thing, i wont be so easily influenced, both persons i love most, but what happened, tell me..
please, and its not easy to leave her,ting. just like him, becos i love them, and she is my best fren.
to that someone on my tag: choose for yourself who i am. choose for urself which is true, only then, can i know who my frens are. thats all i can say.
cheng, btw, i really cant tell u what happened, you wont believe me and it will only jeopardise our frenship.. really.
signing off soon. pray for me, to be able to stand bravely against temptaion to evil. i might just change within one min, i cannot really tell.
will post all that fun stuffi went thru soon, kay? im really tired from all that crying. really tired. all i wanted was for my love to be returned in full.
Labels: ** crying in the rain, frens, i cant make u feel guilty and i wont bother trying to, jigsaw puzzle for the fated, me, somebody Save me
Hosanna in the Highest
2:48 AM
