Sunday, May 27, 2007
okie, in china now, nanjing.. my buddy is beside me.. i get her to say hi okie?
大家好,我是张旭宇.我爱吃爱睡..优妮说就想他一样...
okie.. that was my buddy =.- she's quite fun and she has a damn close fren.. both of them are nice la.. she is currently dating -.- haha, everyone got heated up talkiing about her.. heated as in erm got very active in talking about her.. actually she got quite a bad klearning attitude.. sleep, talk, eat.. =.= okie, nvm.. quite left out.. so diff from last time.. like superstar like that, everyone ask me sign fo9r them :) -.- lol.. okie.. other pple are more heated up aboutm me :):) lol
oh and she damn hua chiu.. worse than me by 100 times.. :) -.-
Hosanna in the Highest
7:16 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
okie, blogger is finAlly back to normal, anyway, lets start with when i started feeling better last week,
on monday, ting wei brought me to pick saga seeds,to make me feel better and i ended up with ant bites, chai chin too!! this stupid girl..-.- the ant bites are still big on my poor legs.. got one spot is like got multiple bites la.
okie, then wed, went out with joyann and pei fang to suntec/marina square/city link..:)
walked nonstop from about 2 to 6?.. my legs were so sore when i got home..then joy bought a newbie bag, cos of that teeny design-.- impulsive buying.. =.- then pei fang bought this erm, shirt.. okay la, not my cup of tea maybe.. lol.. dint manage to find a nice bag. i wanted something that i will go wow the moment i see it and say thats exactly what i want.. when that happens, i wouldnt bother about the price.. seriously.
okie, then on thurs went out with CJ and amanda.. had kfc:).. the aircon was spoiled.. but we sat near to the doors, so when there was an occasional breeze, we could feel it..we had fun at the open plaza and toys r us.. yea.. playing with toys, and craftfully escaping when the store personel came to check..
okay la.. felt quite left out when amanda and cheng joo kept speaking to each other.. then i keep walking in front, keeping quiet.. its the first time i feel this way..
anyways, then went out with pei fang and joy to bugis just yesterday.. bought the gifts for the china strudents and sweets.. well, i always keep my promises, when i say to give u a sweet cos u failed, i would..ya.. coffee sweet.. i like it, hope you will too,lol..decided to use thde fruity ones for china, cos i dint noe amanda doesnt really like coffee that much.. and well, nvm.. i feel like a klutz..
okay, going out now.. fidelia asked me out to cheer me up for doind badly at my exams-.-maybe my exam results is whats making me feel lousy.. actually its something else, and i cant really put it to words.. but anyway,
yannis, can i change my birthday treat to munchkin?!!!!okay la.. i feel totally out.. and very lousy..dunno why, maybe its the changes in our relationship, i tot i knew you like i know myself.. im like when she showed you concern, i tot u dint mind that injury cos u said it was cool, i seriously dunno about you at all lae!!!walao.. i feel very very lousy..Labels: frens, interesting, jigsaw puzzle for the fated, muahaha, somebody Save me
Hosanna in the Highest
7:42 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
okie, quick replies..
from kar wing saying she loves flame wars onwards kay?
KW: you are being lame.. blocked them , so irritating...-.-
CJ:yes.. lame..-.- lol and how come u can vote 5 times, i tried voting second time, and they dint allow it-.-
John: if u think pink is not gay.. blue is, then so BE it LOR.... if u can get what i mean :) *sarcasm
and that smiley not gay not gay lor.. just happened to see it from girls most of the time b4 i saw it from u...=.- ;)
Someone: hi, exams are okay... just looking forward to some treats when i get As.. cos my church fren, gerald promised so...oh and i think i told u in my post to use ur heart to see if the critisicms are true lor.. thats all i can say, and this is the only way i can see if u are a true fren of mine.
lishan: hi, this is the first time u tagged issit>? at my blog..
SR: ya la, im plain lazy-.- dint want to move my fat grubby fingers across the board..
CJ: am i supposed to reply with a smile?*smiles :)
PF and Someone: dun be lame.. its so not christmas now..
John: hi, not really okie, sorry if i scared you when i was like crying like its the end of world in class....
thats all, read my post of u wanna noe what happened..:)
Hosanna in the Highest
7:44 PM
well, since the prob cant be fixed, why should i deprive you guys from knowing all the fun stuff we did?
okie, lets start from the last PE lesson,...
at table tennis...
for three games out of four..
the scores were
10-3
10-7
9-10
10-9
lol....i told him i was gonna show off at my blog.. and he pretended to look weak-.-
well, okie.. then its exams..
then on thurs, i went to yannis house with shu rui, pei fang, joyann, xiang rong,charmaine and ting ting :)
we watched mr bean till halfway cos we really agreed that it was too stupid.. then watched castaway for less than 5 mins b4 we decided to watch poisedon-.- it was cooll, i liked that movie..remembered i first watched it with cheng joo..she said it was boring thou..
anyways, found out thru pooisedon that pei fang is a sadist who keeps saying to tell her when someone dies..-.-
then we played lots of tennis and badminton. the cold green tea tasted like cough medicine-.- then ting and i had maggi mee.. i cook very nice rite PEi fang? anw, had loads of fun :):)
just accepted two disciples.. my elder disciple is ong ting wei, second is lim pei fang, third should be rachel..cos she said she wanted to learn tennis during the june hols.. lol
okie.. then on fri, the mini olympics sucked.. that day all in all sucked, i just feel very guity and sorry for Pei fang and Joyann who went out with such a loser---me... felt real sick, and the seats we had for the spidey show sucked.. like in front? and u had to tilt ur head.. so uncomfortable, wanted to puke..
that day sucked, the first thing when i got home , i stayed in my room to rest.
then about 10+? i went down to watch TV..
got dumped,someone dropped a bomb on me .. at about 11? then i stayed up real late to cry.. OMG, cried and tried hard to sleep for these two nites..
i was so scared last nite, for like some time, my world suddenly blacked out, i couldnt exactly open my eyes.. like i was blinded...my eyes were very strained....so i sneaked(was supposed to sleep) an sms to cheng..its quite fine now thou, or i wouldnt be able to type..
yesterday really sucked, particularly cos its someone's special day, and it kills me to know.
as u can see, i skipped church, its sunday morning now u noe?
i dun think i could stand pple asking me why i look so sad, so tired, your eyes are soo red,is everything ok?
then i prob wouldnt be able to control my tears by the time i force out an 'ok' from my mouth.
yea, so i made use of my fever..
havent been able to eat at all..in fact, from fri nite till now, i only remembered eating two pieces of fish and some winter melon soup for lunch on sat.. sheesh
anw, its mother's day, i have to learn to start smiling..cook a nice meal for my mom.... its been a real tough year for her at work, while i was overcoming pple like nvm, she had to battle with a equally horrible rogue, or maybe slightly worse..while still obeying christ's word.. , and my granny is seriously ill now. even thou she is not my mom's blood mother, she has raised her with love when there was no ties involved..
Kw, i really dun think i should do that.. so what of she came back, how diff would i be from them?...you cant exactly revive a dead.
ting wei is right.. quite right there
well, monday i going to be a gruelling day.. gotta hear that so-called truth.. i pretty much know what to do..i suppose..may not be fully right or can fully reduce hurt, but, well, i dunno.
since everything has changed, why should i pretend i dint?Labels: ** crying in the rain, somebody Save me
Hosanna in the Highest
6:10 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
dunno why i cant add colour or enlarge any fonts.. can anyone tell me why?
okie, just came back from spidey with pei fang and joyann.... found out that i am running a fever of 39.1 degrees......... even kar wing could see im sick, but i tot it was cause im too unwell emotionally.. i have heard of crying causing blindness, but does it cause ur brain to fry?
no wonder each time my brain hurts so much when i start to tear.
i have been crying last nite, today... starting to thiink that there isnt a prob with crying , it helps me to release the anguish in my heart.
i perceieved a terrible news, its so cruel and hard on me that im so scared i will turn into something i will regret in the future. it traumatised me so badly that just thinking or seeing it will freak me out and make me cry....
truth truly hurts.
the prob is i dint even do anything other than being myself. i dint do
ANYTHING wrong!!!!!!!! how can this happen to me?!
What can i do to make u stop this? what can i do to make you leAve!!!!!!!
and now, all i ever wanted was a fren, mainly my best fren to help me remain calm, help me keep a clear mind and not do anything rash.... when u asked for my approval, do i have the right to say no?!!! they say they are so scared of me, but are they so scared that they will cry when they see me? go crazy and wanna run away when they see me? they are not, only faking, they are the ones who have the power to crush my life. all three. they accused me for everything. but here, i present the truth. flipper/faker, f8ker and faggot(kar wing, did i say correctly for the word?)
what is humiliation compared to what have i been going thru............
the both of u said the same thing, i wont be so easily influenced, both persons i love most, but what happened, tell me..
please, and its not easy to leave her,ting. just like him, becos i love them, and she is my best fren.
to that someone on my tag: choose for yourself who i am. choose for urself which is true, only then, can i know who my frens are. thats all i can say.
cheng, btw, i really cant tell u what happened, you wont believe me and it will only jeopardise our frenship.. really.
signing off soon. pray for me, to be able to stand bravely against temptaion to evil. i might just change within one min, i cannot really tell.
will post all that fun stuffi went thru soon, kay? im really tired from all that crying. really tired. all i wanted was for my love to be returned in full.
Labels: ** crying in the rain, frens, i cant make u feel guilty and i wont bother trying to, jigsaw puzzle for the fated, me, somebody Save me
Hosanna in the Highest
2:48 AM
