Wednesday, February 07, 2007
im honestly stressed out. its the first time i got this kind of marks for essay writing. my lowest is like 21? and this happens, and the worst thing is i got ** and she still minus two marks for me, all time low. NC Koh, u are so stressing me out, my confidence of picking myself up seemed to be trampled on when u started to scold me, it slided to the deepest of drains. first thing was that she scolded me for short and sloppy answers for the geog ws, im not the only one who dint do it, i just happened to have tough luck and got caught by her and my ans is NOT short, somebody beside me only wrote less than ten words and my ans is the same ans as alvin okay?!
i feel so thrashed, then i decided to give it another go, and became more active in her lessons, and smillllee more , right.. after all, i have nvr been picked on by other teachers... nvr
but it obviously dint work. yup, and i tore up the essay, then sticked it back, cos i wanted to let her noe how displeased im with her.
so worried, wanted to wow her during geog test, but now after being shown thrashy marks like this from her, i feel like no matter how well i do, she will definitely try to grade me down, man, it sucks, do u guys even noe how it feels? especially since i nvr hated any teachers and even found some that u guys complained about, likeable. (well, at least after 2003)
anyways, was trying really hard to laugh and forget about it during the rehersal. was comparing height with erhem, and i love standing next to my CO frens, cos it just highlights some
certain flaws.. haha.
oh and dun think that some pple are small so they get bullied, tables are being turned now, and I AM the One who kana bullied ok, iron-hands slapped down my back today like mad.... i repeat, iron-hands...
just pray for me to do whats right, i really hope i can regain some confidence, cos its affecting me quite abit, yea, nearly brokedown, its just that i laughed hard enough to momentarily forget it. tried so hard that my head really hurts...
anyways, am really tired after carrying that heavy bass ALL THE WAY to the hall.. going to begin on my studies and then turn in early,
lucking in on my last chance of wow-ing her, pray hard!
P.S. if u wanna be included in some CerTaIn plans for nc koh's valentines and teacher's day gifts, do tell me, yah, i noe u are DYing to pitch in ;)
Hosanna in the Highest
2:35 AM
