Monday, September 11, 2006
Please dun fall off ur seat, and those in my church, please do not tell anyone else in the church.
My mother has finally decided on chasing HIM out, instead of divorcing him. I should be happy, i mean, all these while, he has been using violence on me just becos i wasnt a male, and bcos my sis is better in her academics than me. No matter what i do, he will find fault with me, even my mother cant bear to see me suffering anymore. it is often bcos of this that i choose not to return home early, i didnt want to see my sis, yes, i love her, but sometimes, im so jealous of the attention she receives. And she could be considered the root of my frustrations. And he never contributes to the welfare of the family, or bought anything at all for the household, eveything, my mother single-handedly raised me up, while having to suffer from her mother-in-law and HIM,purposely reserving stuff and new bags and stuff for her(my sis) alone. They are such f%cking bastards!!!
Do u noe why i didnt turn up during worship service? it was cos we just had a brawl over something my sis wouldnt graciously let me, when she just told me the nite b4 that she would let me use that particular thing, so of cos , when HE heard that i slapped my sis on her arm, he ran up and tried to scold and use violence on me. What the? where is the justice? My mom cme to block off HIM and she suffered the attacks. Thats why my mom and I are were too mad to go to the service.And my stupid sis even sent me hate msgs , saying that im unfilial to HIM, and all, i used all my knowledge of vulgarity and cursed her, which is a reason why i asked u guys for help, cos i only knew that few.
Today, when the boys came disturbing me,i couldnt take it, and cried. My mom declared that she will file a report to the police with the pics of the bruises on her arm, and well, just places... My sis is cursing me mom now, blaming her for everything, i have just finished using the book to slam her head a couple of times,b4 she scratched my arm like mad.i could have just used that knife and stab her!! but that would destroy my future.
Why dun my sis just commit suicide,b4 i start staring at that knife, which im starting to steal glances at. I still want to help in the extension of my Lord's kingdom.
I have always encouraged my mother to help me and help herself of getting this burden off and divorce HIM, but she says that the bible says that the divorce of parents would fall on their children, but i dun care, my life is hard enough.But now that my mom has said she wants to chase him out, dunno why but im not elated as i would expect to be, that damn idiot, ruined my childhood.
Im sorry boys, im just not in the most generous mood , its quite impossible to be. So please bEAR with not bullying me for awhile, i would appreciate that , and if all AP-ed pple dun bother me with ur AP-edness, thanks.....
Hosanna in the Highest
3:53 AM
