Sunday, September 24, 2006
hi everyone, just came back from a meal with fatty Colin Soh and that idiot BEn soh who stole my drink that frightful christmas!! my DRink!!!! yea, and if u imagine me saying it in ting xuan's childish voice, it will be really hilarious.....
dunno why my body is changing so wierdly. after all that eating disorder toks, my body seem to reject food in a wierd way. first, i realise that i dun turn on at the sight of food. Can u imagine that??!!!, me? reject food?!
as in, when i see food, i feel like vomitting. i dunno why, but i will feel nauseous, but i still feel hungry, its so wierd. and i cant seem to down carbo properly without covering my mouth to prevent "merlioning". i dunno, i try to force myself to eat it, but its hard to keep it down , and i found out that the sit is better without carb. yea, so avoiding carb. can u imagine, even thou the only carb i had during today's lunch is that cheese cake. forgot to tell u, i can resist anything, but cheese cake, cos im so addicted to it after that slice in paris. its just soo good, the proportion of flour and water is just right, causing the texture to flow, yea, sorry, lets not digress.
back to the case: okie, so after eating that distasteful chesse cake, i felt so horrid that i threw up.
throwing up chesse cake? me?!
dun ask why, even i dunno. and erm, please, im not prregnant or stuff=.= PMS is wrong!!
so, dunno if this is good, cos it will help me in my diet, but it feels wierd to like avoid food?!
and now, instead of gorging when im stressed or upset, or anything, i turn to music and can forgo food, thats so wierd!!! is there any logical explanation? it cant be that my body feels i have had enough food already?!! all my other systems are okay.
dunnoo, leh, and my hormones are properly developed.
im just wierd....
Hosanna in the Highest
12:42 AM
