Monday, August 28, 2006
too many issues at hand, its causing me to get really paranoid and my hormones are reacting wierdly, while my brain noes i should do this, my body just reacts differently, which makes me very lost and uncomfortable, i tot ny frens may understand but they are often than not as wilful.
it makes me upset, and sometimes when im alone, i tend to have suicidal tots like just cutting my hand or i just use wierd methods to express my unhapinessm these days, its getting from bad to worse, sometimes i wanna just run away from home from this life to my frens overseas. these tots are just not the kind i had when i was a devoted christian,no, im just so influenced by my surrounding that i just change to be like them, its hard to begin a new life in the middle of nowhere, im veery lost,
does anyone have any suggestions?impressing and pleasing pple seemed so much harder than b4, but now that i have a mind of my own, pple are not happy, damn this world and ***M, which made things worse.and for those who consider to be my frens, just pls tell me if i go overboard, i feel extreme these days, its all cos of the hormones!!!!!!!!!!!!oh and he looks so much like that crappy giglo--my head prefect in pri sch. ask around, they will find the 2 pple similar! that head prefect was my one and only crush in pri sch(only began in p4?), and it was a nightmare, damnm the similarity is uncanny, that eyes, style, and come to think of it, their accent is similar too! gosh , dun wanna think about the unbelieveable similarity!!!!!! Hosanna in the Highest
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