Wednesday, August 30, 2006
seriously feeling down in the dumps. got scared by the kitten which i think is not cool, and its a world-known thing that im scared of these kinda animals, wats the big deal about scaring me with it, doesnt make u less stupid.-.-and when i wanted to go home, ang hong and jun yao wanted to take neoprints with me, so i obliged. but who noes that someone came along and she said, "i want to take neoprint with jun yao, ang hong and delphine" pretty much in my face. i was like wAts the big deal with her, besides, ah and jy wanted to take with me at first de! but im not so thick-skinned and decided not to go below my self-esteem to take the pics. im very prideful, i dun wanna go below my self-esteem to please someone, but very often, for the sake of harmony, i do stuff that i hate, i have to smile and laugh at jokes that arent funny and i agree with stuff that i dislike. SO, i chose to do my way when i really couldnt stand things, sorry to jun yao and ang hong that i walked away in a huff, but i couldnt stand to see that hypocritical look on her face, she was nice in front of many pple, but she turns to bcome very how to say, idiotic when she thinks u arent cool and like not doing as well as others, many pple experienced the same stuff as me, but they chose to be in denial and continue befriending her, Wats the point? why would u want a friend like her who switches on and off. however, im not angry with *********, im angry at those who claim to be my frens, helo? if u are my fren, can u show that u are my fren and voice out certain matters for me? u guys feel the same way as i do but keep quiet and be compliant towards matters. i really hope that my frens can actually show that they are my frens. i mean u guys always complain to me about these pple, and i would ask them to be considerate to ur sensitivity, but yet when its my turn, u guys just sit on the fence.
its getting very tiring for me to muster courage to face these pple who think that they very cool and "in" ALONE ; and to talk frankly to them for you and offending them.
i really want to sleeep and rest.............. Hosanna in the Highest
12:36 AM
its getting very tiring for me to muster courage to face these pple who think that they very cool and "in" ALONE ; and to talk frankly to them for you and offending them.